Drew and I recently returned from our first ever debrief with our World Race squad in Cambodia. It came and went with a whirl. As I process all that lead up to and included our week abroad, I can’t help but marvel at God’s hand paving the way years before we had ever even heard of the World Race.
From the perspective of our flesh, it has been a battle to believe that we have anything to offer this next generation. We after all are “just” a Mom and Dad, middle class workers, no different than many of the parents of the racers we would be coaching. However, God has called us into this position and He is equipping and teaching us as we step forward into this new position. I was convicted this morning as I read in Jeremiah – God rebuking Jeremiah for saying “I am a youth”.
The words burned as I read in Jeremiah 1:7-8 “…For you shall go to all to whom I send you, And whatever I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of their faces, For I am with you to deliver you.” says the Lord.”
The plan God had for Jeremiah is different than the plan He has for Drew and I (thank goodness!) but the idea is the same – We need to trust Him and do what He asks. I feel like just understanding that gives me a whole new appreciation of walking in authority. Looking back on our time in Cambodia I can see that God really did give us everything we needed for each moment. He gave us words to share in teaching, as well as words during our one on ones. He gave us energy and rest. He gave us a greater understanding of what happens on the World Race as we could see the transformation that is happening in these young lives. He also gave us the dance moves that were needed for a fun night on the roof with our squad. Most importantly, He gave us a love for this squad that I can not even begin to explain. They have become an extension of my family.
As I was sitting here this morning, contemplating the balance of coaching and just living my normal life with all that that entails, a thought popped into my mind: “Walk in Freedom, Daughter”. It was a strange thought, that didn’t seem to connect at all with what I was thinking about. Should I just do whatever I want? I asked God what He might be trying to tell me. Later on an image came to my mind of someone in prison who has no choice in what to wear, what to eat, where to walk or sit. That same person probably dreams of a life of freedom. The day the chains are released they would walk with purpose toward that dream. What once was a dream could now become a reality if they do not lose sight of it.
I thought about my frustrations with how tight my clothes are getting (lots of carbs in Cambodia…and gelato!), how long my to do list is and all the projects I have to finish. I like to think that I have freedom but in truth I am in bondage to food and distractions. True freedom is when I look to the goal and walk towards it with purpose. My goal isn’t necessarily to be thin – although my thinner healthier body that is trapped right now in a prison of extra weight wants out. My goal isn’t even to live my “best life” – whatever that means. I’m reminded that life is short and living without regret is also freedom. My goal is to live a life that honors and gives glory to God! That means in my marriage, my parenting, my coaching, my friendships, my work, my home, my adventures – basically my time. What I have come to understand through trusting God with our future is that His plan far exceeds anything I could have come up with on my own. I feel more free than I can ever remember as we have let go of control of working too much or worrying about things beyond our control. God is good and He wants us to walk in the freedom that comes from a life surrendered to HIM!
1 Peter 2:16-17 “Live as people who are free, not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God. Honor everyone. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honor the emperor.”
Galatians 5:13 “For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.
Galations 5:1 “It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.”